Fall Fun...and holding on to these moments!

Lately, I’ve been feeling guilty and a bit sad that I only have a few remaining months with just Evie. It’s been just her and me for 2 years…play dates, play gyms, story times, parks.….just the two of us. However, I’m realizing that this time is quickly coming to an end. And even though she drives me absolutely crazy sometimes, I’m going to miss it. 

Sometimes, I feel guilty that her life is going to change so much. I know that she will never remember a time without her three brothers. And I know that having siblings for her will enrich her life even more in the long run. 

I have fears that I just wont be able to give her the time, attention and love that she needs/want/expects. However, the irony of this whole thing is that sometimes when I watch her wander around the house alone, I feel guilty that she DOESN”T have siblings. I know, I know….I’m ridiculous. Guilty for having them….guilty for not! Anyhow, the past few weeks my energy has come back and I haven’t been feeling nauseous most of the day…and the weather has been so gorgeous..So, I’ve taken advantage of all of this and visited pumpkin patches and petting zoos and apple orchards many days during the week. What better way to spend a sunny fall day! Free fun! Evie has a blast climbing (and falling off) haystacks, chasing chickens, eating fresh apples and riding the pumpkin trains. I’ve soaked up each one of these outings this fall, truly savoring my moments with her. 

I know when the boys do come, they will quickly become part of our family. It’s just hard to imagine right now, as it was difficult to imagine Evie before she was born. It’s funny how quickly we adopt "new normals."

I think Evie and I will always have a special relationship. After all, with a house full of boys coming, us girls will have to stick together!

In Charge

Lee Farms!

                            

Buds 

Queen of the patch!

Enjoying a sunny afternoon

Yum!

Riding the pumpkin train

Halloween with her cousins in Seattle!