Hospital Day 4 Update: No babies yet!

Well it's nearing the end of day 4 here in the hospital. Time doesn't exist here; the hours all melt together and before you know it another day has passed. After arriving on Wednesday afternoon, I spent the next 48 hours hooked up to an IV machine with magnesium sulfate pulsating through my veins. This mixture is a muscle relaxant and stops contractions. It also made me see double...and it made my eyes and skin burn. I spent most of those days with my eyes closed, passing time. I was also given two steroid shots that speed up the development of the babies' lungs. They shut off the machine last night and unhooked everything and now we are just waiting to see what the next step is. The doctors all say that each hour the babies stay put, the better off they are. If I'm honest, part of me just wants to do this thing and meet our sons! But, realistically, it would be best for the babies if they continued to "cook."
So I've been sitting all day in the hospital room, just me and my big belly of baby. I feel like an oven, a "means" to an "end." I really realized today that my purpose right now is to grow these baby boys.

I have one more day here, and then Monday the doctors will determine if I am able to go home or if they want me to stay. I am really hoping to go home.
The nurses and staff have been so so wonderful here; the foods not bad either. But to be away is so hard too. I finally got to see Evie today after leaving her suddenly on Wednesday afternoon. Apparently, she has been having an absolute blast with Grandma and Grandpa and all the amazing friends that have taken her for a few hours. It really wasn't the reunion I envisioned however; she was apprehensive when she saw Mommy in her wheelchair with tubes coming out of her arms. The visiting rules are pretty strict so we only got 30 min in the lobby together. John had fun pushing us both around in the wheelchair.
I have to say that being here has made me appreciate my good health. I think about the people in this same building battling serious illnesses who have kids and family they are separated from. How very very difficult.
I am trying to make the best of my time here. I've had some good conversations with some nurses, got some rest, some friends popped in to say hello too...I'm also trying to surrender, once again, my idea of how I want all this to go. I know we are nearing "the end" of the triplet pregnancy, and nearing the beginning of our new crazy life as a family of six. When it all happens is still to be determined. Right now I sit...and grow babies. I'm trying to embrace these remaining moments I have of feeling and seeing them move in me, hearing their heartbeats and dreaming about what they might look like. Soon it will be reality. As a nurse told me today, "enjoy the calm before the storm." ;)

                                  So friends, no babies yet....but tomorrow is another day....